this is kind of the book that Inspired this whole page.. catalogs the dissolution of sense of self in nature, the uh. hypnotic draw of a Vast Expanse, and obviously how greed corrupts both of those

my favorite movie ! replacing an addiction with a religious connection with Bears is something i think about a lot. particularly the obsession with something that is pretty much garunteed to eventually kill you.... such an amazing premise, so beautiful, the people in it are all so complex... I Love This Movie basically

God Can Be A Roach Sometimes

this is just a random fun book i picked up at the library next to my house one day, but i got really into reading it. it's just so interesting when people give up all aspects of a normal life to study another living thing that is particularly rare or endangered. in this case, its owls in siberia-- the author travels to these extreme cold destinations and waits to find one of these owls, and that's his whole life basically. i always wonder how it would feel to be a rare animal that people get really excited to see

made my life goal to live somewhere for long enough to know everything about the nature of that one spot. like, he discusses specific trees and repeat visitor birds that would migrate through every year. probably an exercise in gratitude to be so observant and invested in your surroundings